Tea Tuesday: Social Problems

I will avoid public situations like the plague.
Just typing this out now thinking about groups of people and me standing there, having to socialize, turns me into a nervous wreck. Cold sweats and panic attacks follow and in the end I've spent the whole day by myself (actually now with my son), in my home usually cleaning or reading.

This has being going on in my life for as long as I could remember. People used to say it's because I'm shy, but I feel it's much more than that. I just refuse to talk to people, to be around people, I rather be at home doing my own thing and not feel like I'm constantly being judged.
Is that the bottom issue here, that I don't want to be judged? That could be the majority of it, I know that I'm different and have different interests to most people and I should embrace that, but just the thought of someone criticizing them makes me angry and curl up into a ball type of person. Just because I think people are being critical about my interests doesn't stop me from continuing to obsesses over it, I just end up not telling people.

I'm happy in my life at the moment, I have a partner and a 3 year old son that I love more than life itself. I have one of the best friends in the world who happens to be my exact double. We both love the same things, and I'm not kidding, we actually think alike. We are basically separated at birth (even though we are 20 years apart).
So even though I have a "problem," I still love my life. I'm at a point now being 28 that I've accepted that I don't do public situations very well. Yes at times it does become a bit of a problem, but I will work it out on my own. I think as soon as someone gives me advice, instead of going forward I'll be going backwards.

What I'm trying to say is, just accept people for who they are. Yes of course we all don't have the same interests, that's a good thing. Who wants a world of carbon copies, it's being individual that makes this crazy place interesting.
Also, and most importantly, don't judge, don't make rude incorrect comments about someone to anyone with ears. No one is perfect. And like the saying goes, "people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones."

I hope you enjoyed Tea Tuesday, you just got a taste of the real me, hope it wasn't too bitter. 
If you agree or just want to talk about anything I just said, please leave a comment below.